We’re already half way through January, and I still can’t believe it’s 2019. And in true new year’s fashion, I’ve been writing 2018 on everything for the past two weeks. Also, I haven’t really started my new year’s resolutions. Transitions are hard.Continue Reading
This year was a doozy. And that’s truly the best description I can come up with. But I’m here to try to dig a little deeper because setting aside time to take stock of the year is really important. It’s so easy to forget all the good things that happen to us because negative things are always more salient. But we lose a lot when we forget the joys we have experienced. And this year really has been filled with a lot of joy for me.Continue Reading
Yikes, it’s been a minute. Summer was . . . a doozy. Parts were amazing and parts were meh. The main summary is I had a lot of fun, spent a lot of money, and it was way too fucking hot. But now for more detail:
Okay, so remember when I wrote a whole post about understanding my sexuality? Yeah, well, what I really meant to say in that post is that I’m gay. But I didn’t know that at the time…whoops. At this point, I’m almost completely out. Only my extended family don’t know, and I don’t plan on hiding it. I feel so at home in myself now that I have come out. To be honest, I didn’t expect to feel any differently after coming out as gay. After all, I have been out as some variation of bisexual or liking women for 10 years. But I’ve been picking up on some pretty major changes over the past few months.
Approximately 6 months ago, I made 5 goals for the new year. Now that we’re halfway through (?!), I thought I’d check in with myself to see how I’ve been doing.
So. Time’s really flying by isn’t it? I don’t even know what to do about it anymore; I’m just hanging on for dear life. Which would explain why I missed my April recap. Whoops! But also, the months have been going by so quickly that I really haven’t had the opportunity to experience many things. Which is really rough. My goal for this month is to be more present day-to-day. I’ve started keeping gratitude journal in hopes of maintaining this practice. I’ll let you know how it goes. Anyway. On to April’s and May’s blessings:
Keeping up with your mental health can be a bitch. That’s the beginning and end of it. Even if you typically have great days, you are bound to have a really shitty day every now and again. That’s called being alive. Because mental health is so often overlooked in our society, I don’t think we all have access to resources that can help us when we are feeling down. That being said, we are starting to hear a lot more about self-care these days, which is fantastic. But I think it can be easy to forget that self-care is not just doing flowery, fun things. It’s literally taking care of ourselves!
Okay, I have to talk about something that’s been bothering me for a while. Over the past few years, I’ve developed a huge issue with call-out culture and fandom. Let’s start with fandom. Fandom is a great thing, for the most part. I consider a fandom to be a group of people who all really, really like a certain thing. For example, almost everybody on Tumblr was in the Glee fandom from 2009 to 2012 (an exaggeration, but you know…). Fandom can be fantastic. It can be affirming to members of marginalized groups. It can bring people with similar interests from all over the world together. It can even bring people with otherwise really dissimilar interests together, too, which can ultimately help people to become more accepting overall. That’s great. Let’s keep that. The issue I see with fandom is what is typically referred to as “stanning.”
So. March really flew by there . . . as did most of April??? I’m still yearning for that 500-day-long January. Should have appreciated it more while I had it. March was, all in all, a good month. But I wasn’t sorry to see it go. Let’s break it down.
Okay, wow. If January was 8 years long, February was 1 second long. It was totally uncalled for. On one hand, February was so short that I got absolutely nothing accomplished. But on the other hand, the month was such an emotional rollercoaster that I was pleased to move on. So far March is also passing at warp speed, as is evidenced by the fact that I am just now writing this post on St. Paddy’s Day . . . Oh well, here we go!